Tuesday, December 11, 2007
1st Blog Post
Tis is my 1st blogging, but stil dun0 hw to use it in a pr0per way, like editing th0se skins, etc.... h0pe sum1 will teach miie ^_^
ii wanna type all my happy and unhappy here since he's nt thr t0 listen t0 miie anymre, with0ut him i reali dun0 wat i can d0. Every nite will stil thin of eu, h0pe tt 1 day he will c0r miie but i n0e tis is BU KE NEH de
ii noe him(jappy) thr0ugh maple. At 1st we were jus maple stead, and after few days we xchange 0ur hp n0 cuz he wan it( mayb im wr0ng fr0m here 0n). We noe each other durin feb 07 de, after the xchange of hp n0 we start msg-in wit each 0ther, at 1st ii treat it as msg-in wit a frenz. Aft few days lata, we start t0kin 0n f0ne wit each 0thers, and was very happy at tt time cuz b4 knowin him, my feeling all day l0ng is sian/em0/lifeless. My life was sku--> g0 0ut wit frenzs t0 slack --> hm --> slp, mayb sumtime wil maple. Aft knowin him, ii start t0 lik maple al0t, everyday aft sku ii wil chi0ng hm t0 0n9 maple n w8 f0r him t0 0n9. From den 0nwards, i hardly g0 0ut wit frenzs, always stay at hm t0 maple and chi0ng my lvl. I dun0 y the sudden change 0f miie. From tt days 0nwards i chi0ng maple and always t0k 0n f0ne wit him, everyday ii will w8 f0r him t0 0n9, w8 f0r him t0 call miie ( tis bec0me my life and im gttin use t0 it).ii when t0 meet him durin b4 my N lvl start, tt time was t0 peii him t0 zkm. We were dam happy f0r tt few m0nths, but sumtime he lik t0 keep things t0 himself, tis make miie w0rry f0r him but he dun0. I mysel 0s0 dun0 when i start t0 lik him, everytime he sae w0rds lik ' tis gurl dam chi0 le ' ii start t0 gt sad, heartt feel pain. Sumtime when we quarrel, i will hide mysel n cry ( wit0ut ppl kn0win). I did t0ld him ii start t0 lik him, but he t0ld miie ' i nw dun feel lik havin a gf ' i was ' nvm l0 , i willin t0 w8 f0r him' but when time pass, i suspect tt he's h0ngin wit 0ther gurls, but i stil wanna trust him since i ask him, 'cn ur w0rds b trusted?' he t0ld miie ' yes' but durin 0CT 07 sum1 came t0 tel miie tt he's been lookin f0r his x steadd, i was ' SMLJ ? ' n gt angry, cuz he sae he dun wan it nw , but y he l00k f0r his x ! den we break in maple. But aft we break he came t0 find miie in maple de FM, he t0ld miie tt he dun wan a gf cuz he wan t0 earn his 0wn m0ney by nt usin his parents m0ney, and 0s0 sae tt he wan t0 have his 0wn car 1st b4 havin a gf. Aft tt sum1 else came t0 tel miie tt he gt real life gf and i saw it, i ask him but he sae ' NO' and say i see wr0ngli. I dun wanna trust him anymre, and ii accepted an0ther guy, cuz ii wan t0 make him angry and feel being dump. But when im wit tt Bf, ii was thinkin abt HIM ! ii felt unfair f0r him s0 ii ask f0r break aft 1 m0nth since i n0e ii cnt 4gt jappy. Aft ii break wit him , i thin jappy saw my msn msg n nick, he ask miie t0 c0r him, and he c0mf0rt miie. ar0 1 wk lata he ji0 miie 0ut, tt was actuli cuz he gt zkm and wanna miie peii him but in the end the zkm was cancelled, s0 he ask miie pei him g0 0ut, sae wat: g0 r0mantic la, wanna h0ld my hand la, in msg c0r miie la0p0 all th0se. but things change aft tt day we went 0ut t0 m0vie, he didnt c0r miie le, ii c0r him ask wat was he d0in, he sae he was busy wit weddin things, but 4 days busy wit it? cnt b ! and sum1 else came t0 tel miie he saw him wit an0ther gurl!! FK UP ! ii realized tt HE CNT B TRUSTED! even last wk thur he gt zkm, i was supp0se t0 g0, in the end i make up a lie, t0ld them ii was sick, jus cuz i dun wan t0 c him.
Even t0t ii dun wan t0 c him, i was dam dam dam dam SAD. Every nite sti thin 0f him, ii suddenli feel tt wit0ut him wan cn i d0? im used tt he's always thr f0r miie, but nw he's nt thr le, i must learn t0 b by mysel
iHATELOVE! iHATE4EVA! iHATEeu! iHATEHPROMISE! !! iHATEfirter! yEuWanToMakeMiLoveEuWhenEuAlrdyGt1! HATE!LOVEcntBeTrusted!!
i mUST TY HIM FOR ALL THESE . TY YJB !
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